Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Out with the old, in with the new

Warning****this post is a little cheesy, but I had to do it.

As I come to the end of my pregnancy, I can't believe the day is almost here! I am being induced tomorrow and I have so many thoughts, I figured I should put a few of them down. First of all, I look at my maternity picture below and almost have to laugh that I thought I looked pregnant! I had absolutely no idea how huge I would actually get! I need to post some real maternity picures, but that might have to wait.

As this week has been wrapping up, Nate and I have talked about all the 'lasts' we are about to face. This is the last time we can go to a sit down restaurant for a while, this is the last movie we'll go to in a long time, this is the last time we'll be able to sleep in, the last time we'll go to bed alone and sleep all night, the last time we can go see my mom in Music and the Spoken Word, the last time we can hang out with friends alone or without a babysitter. And the list goes on.

There was a time in my life that all of these lasts would bring on a little bit of sadness, but I can honestly say that I'm ready to put this behind me, especially when I think about all the firsts we're about to encounter. The 'first' that I'm looking forward to the most right now? The first time I see my baby boy. The first cry, the first time I hold him, the first time I see Nate hold him, the first time we bring him home, his first laugh and smile(is first starting to sound like a weird word to anyone else?)

I have to admit that there are some firsts that kind of scare me. The first time he cries all night, the first time my mom and Nate are gone and I'm alone with him all day, the first time he's sick, the first day I go back to work and leave him, the day he enters the MTC....I'm jumping ahead.

This is such an exciting time for me. Today was actually my last day to sleep in and I was wide awake at 6 am. I'm thinking about him and what this new phase of life will bring us. I have no idea what to expect, but I am looking forward to this! Sometimes I think 33(34 in a few days) is old to begin motherhood, but when I really think about it, I wouldn't have it any other way. I think having to wait this long has been a good thing for me. Back when I was 18, I probably would have died if someone had told me I would have to wait this long to be a mom. Today, I am totally ok with it. And tomorrow, I think I will be even better with it.


The Muries said...

Nicole you will be great! Those lasts are true (although taking a newborn to a restaurant is much easier then a toddler in ways) but the first are so much better!!! They will melt your heart and there is nothing in the world you wouldn't do for the little one. I worry about some of the firsts still and I think I always will. You are a superstar though and I think you are going to be an amazing mom!!! Good luck tomorrow!!! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Tracy said...

I'm so excited for you. You are going to be an amazing mother!

The Alleman Family said...

Nicole... You and Nate are going to be amazing parents! Enjoy all of the "firsts" because sooner than you know it your kids will be big and you will look back and wish you could get some of that time back. Best of luck tomorrow, I cant wait to see pictures of your new little one!

Jackie said...

I love love love you! You're going to be such a great mom. I can't wait to meet William! You're going to have a great day tomorrow. :)

Jill said...

I guess I should say "Happy Birthday!" to Will. And say "Congrats" to you and Nate. I don't think this was cheesy at all it is special.

Brian and Courtni said...

that made me cry :-) i loved how you worded that...perfect. so happy for you and nate - you guys will be awesome parents! i was just thinking how crazy it is that next time i see you, you will be a mom!!