Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Hanging out in wheat fields and barns while pregnant

I decided to go along with the trend of the day and do some maternity pictures. My friend at the salon, Andrea Christiansen took these for me. I figured I'd better put them on the blog before Will got here, otherwise, I knew it would never happen.

Out with the old, in with the new

Warning****this post is a little cheesy, but I had to do it.

As I come to the end of my pregnancy, I can't believe the day is almost here! I am being induced tomorrow and I have so many thoughts, I figured I should put a few of them down. First of all, I look at my maternity picture below and almost have to laugh that I thought I looked pregnant! I had absolutely no idea how huge I would actually get! I need to post some real maternity picures, but that might have to wait.

As this week has been wrapping up, Nate and I have talked about all the 'lasts' we are about to face. This is the last time we can go to a sit down restaurant for a while, this is the last movie we'll go to in a long time, this is the last time we'll be able to sleep in, the last time we'll go to bed alone and sleep all night, the last time we can go see my mom in Music and the Spoken Word, the last time we can hang out with friends alone or without a babysitter. And the list goes on.

There was a time in my life that all of these lasts would bring on a little bit of sadness, but I can honestly say that I'm ready to put this behind me, especially when I think about all the firsts we're about to encounter. The 'first' that I'm looking forward to the most right now? The first time I see my baby boy. The first cry, the first time I hold him, the first time I see Nate hold him, the first time we bring him home, his first laugh and smile(is first starting to sound like a weird word to anyone else?)

I have to admit that there are some firsts that kind of scare me. The first time he cries all night, the first time my mom and Nate are gone and I'm alone with him all day, the first time he's sick, the first day I go back to work and leave him, the day he enters the MTC....I'm jumping ahead.

This is such an exciting time for me. Today was actually my last day to sleep in and I was wide awake at 6 am. I'm thinking about him and what this new phase of life will bring us. I have no idea what to expect, but I am looking forward to this! Sometimes I think 33(34 in a few days) is old to begin motherhood, but when I really think about it, I wouldn't have it any other way. I think having to wait this long has been a good thing for me. Back when I was 18, I probably would have died if someone had told me I would have to wait this long to be a mom. Today, I am totally ok with it. And tomorrow, I think I will be even better with it.